...and nothing else is flowing.
(you can only laugh with us, not at us)
2/22/10
what we do when no one is watching...
2/17/10
Speaking of love... and my 1000 days
Many of you know that I am getting close to the end of my 1000 day meditations: Sodarshan and Sat Kriyas. It ends April 19. Already, I plan to continue on with Sodarshan because it is helping me through the critical transitions that I am currently going through in my life. It is grounding me in my own space. At this moment, the Sat Kriya is kicking my ass; it is difficult to get through and I can hardly take the physical sensations I experience as I practice it. How I know which kriya is doing what I will never understand, but I do.
Today, the Sat Kriya is once again blowing my heart wide open. The elevation is remarkable. The feeling of love overwhelming. Love of what? Everything. If I had to guess what it felt like to be on ecstacy, this might be it. But not really. The experience is pure, profound and expansive. It's not all joy, however. There is a small element of pain infused into it. Nothing devastating, just this feeling of connection to all that exists in this world. I don't know what to do with this energy, but it feels safe and grounding.I suppose the idea is to just let it flow and allow it to become a part of me.
My very first sensational experience since I've started the 1000 days was this heart-opening that I just mentioned which happened around day 120. Subsequently, as these meditations began to work on a different level, a different aspect of me, I literally felt myself "walking through" a door or passage into the next part of myself that was to be cleared, or worked on. It's been a while since I've experienced this walk-thru. Here it is now, the explosion- my circle back perhaps for A-prime. Could it be an accident that my son comes home with a song to practice for a school performance from Whitney Houston called "The Greatest Love of All [is happening to me]," a song I haven't heard in how many years? "I found the greatest love of all inside of me." I've run into a number of energy healers and lightworkers lately and the message to me is "take care of yourself," "nurture yourself." I've been doing that, yes. Partially. But take it to a whole new level, and I don't think I've even scratched the surface.
I feel more vulnerable and at the same time more in my power. I have never felt more at a pivotal moment in my life than I am right now.
My request to the Universe is to keep sending angels my way that will support my growth and love me in a kinder, more gentler way.
Sat nam.
2/16/10
Love and Tennis
I looked up the word love, and there was another definition besides deep affection towards another person. In tennis, love is a score of zero, or nothing.
I love that.
In yoga, there is this word suniaa, which means nothing. Zero point. This is what we, in our practice, strive for. And upon reaching this zero point, all at once we become everything. Within this nothingness, we create a new pattern of being, of greatness. It is at this point that we step into our highest potential.
In love, my ego, my boundaries, disappear, and I become One. With this world, I become We. When I am in love with a man, and he loves me, he and I become We. Time no longer exists and creation under the purest form of engagement, or ultimate pleasure, erupts. From what? From a simple desire to be touched, understood, seen, loved. And from a natural desire to expand, becoming nothing and everything.
A feeling (love as an emotion) becomes expression (love as action) and everything is permanently altered. The attachment, the oneness, the energetic connection is forged, both joy and pain infused together in playing out this day to day drama that is a part of life as a human being. From this point, the work towards balance as we seek wholeness within ourselves while supporting it in the other person is critical, lest suffering continues. I can feel him even when he is not with me because there is a connection. His pain becomes mine. His joy mine. Same with my children. Same with this world.
Love, in its quest, is human. Attained in its truest form- enlightenment. May we all engage in pursuit of this power that denies no one and could only bring joy and healing to us all. Breathe it in fully. Exhale it out, offer it back to the world, completely. Recalibrate. And play some Tennis with a capital T.
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